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75 songs. Raw. Spiritual. Yours.

Two complete collections: the original 33-track catalog and the 42-track Kaleidoscope Mind album. From shadow to light, mirror to madness, every song is its own world.

Individual tracks $1 • Bundles $5–$15 • Full album $10 • Digital MP3 • Instant download

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Kaleidoscope Mind — 42 tracks. One album.

Mirror and madness. Thought and shadow. Absurdity and light.

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Complete Album

Kaleidoscope Mind

The Christian Satanist

All 42 tracks from The Christian Satanist's Kaleidoscope Mind playlist. Mirror and madness, thought and shadow, absurdity and light — the full psychedelic journey.

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Mirror & Reflection

Mirror & Reflection

Eight songs from the other side of the glass. The reflections that know your name, the merchants who trade in them, and the madness that lives between you and your image.

  • 01Back of the Glass, Where Reflections
  • 02Mirror Learns Your Name
  • 03Mirror of the Absurd (Raspier / Darker)
  • 04Mirror With a Heart, Man!
  • 05The Mirror Merchant
  • 06THUMPER IN THE MIRROR
  • 07Whisper Between Worlds
  • 08Whoop, Whoop... Mirrors of Madness
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Mind & Thought

Mind & Thought

Nine songs from inside the architecture of thought. Algorithms and dragons, mindscape blueprints, and the echoes a machine makes when it's been running too long.

  • 01Algorithm & Dragons (Remastered)
  • 02Blink Away Thinker
  • 03GROWN FROM THOUGHT (Welcome to the Mind)
  • 04Mindscape Architect
  • 05Only One Thought
  • 06Reality Frequency
  • 07The Echoes of the Machine
  • 08what I thought
  • 09Windmill Reflections
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Absurdist & Playful

Absurdist & Playful

Eight songs that refuse to take the apocalypse seriously. Kindergartners on grown-up skis, forbidden farmers markets, and the audacity of asking if cereal is soup.

  • 01Whoop Whoop, This Is Fine (Remastered)
  • 02Bad Decisions & Punchlines
  • 03Carnival of the Unchained
  • 04Forbidden Farmers Market
  • 05Is Cereal Soup?
  • 06KINDERGARTNERS IN GROWN-UP SKIS
  • 07Trip in Place
  • 08We Are Weavers
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Shadow & Darkness

Shadow & Darkness

Nine songs from the vault. Hollow words and righteous rage, quiet deaths and the cut where God stops smiling. For those who've already been the reaper.

  • 01Beautifully Bent and Twisted (Remastered)
  • 02Hollow Nothings
  • 03I've Already Been the Reaper (Can We Not)
  • 04NO ONE ELSE'S FAITH
  • 05RAGE WITH A BITE
  • 06The Cost of Right
  • 07The Cut Where God Stops Smiling
  • 08the ones who die quietly
  • 09Vault of Shadows
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Light & Dreams

Light & Dreams

Eight songs that hum at the right frequency. Moonborn machines and perpetual motion, wildflowers and the beat that finally found its rhythm.

  • 01Dreams Are The Reality
  • 02Moonborn Machine
  • 03Perpetual Motion
  • 04Respect is a Verb
  • 05The Beat That Found Its Rhythm
  • 06The Ethereal Slip
  • 07The Hum That Belongs Here (Remastered)
  • 08Whispers and Wildflowers
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Original Collection
Original Collection

The First 33

Shadow to light, ego to God, wound to window. Five complete emotional arcs from the original catalog.

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Shadow & Grief

Shadow & Grief

For the ones who learned to carry what should have broken them. Seven songs that sit inside the darkest corners without looking away.

  • 01Don't Turn The Wounded Into Monsters
  • 02I Learned to Grieve in the Dark
  • 03The Weight You Named Love
  • 04Funeral for the Self I Killed
  • 05What Survives the Burning
  • 06Carrying the Dead Version of Me
  • 07Before I Learned to Let It Hurt
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Rebirth & Light

Rebirth & Light

The morning after the long night. Seven songs about what's possible when the collapsing finally stops.

  • 01After the Collapse, Morning
  • 02Something Like Hope
  • 03The Other Side of Breaking
  • 04When the Wound Becomes a Window
  • 05Becoming Who I Was Before the Damage
  • 06Light Through the Fracture
  • 07I Found God Where I Fell Apart
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Ego & Identity

Ego & Identity

Who are you beneath the mask beneath the mask? Seven songs about dissolving what was built to survive — and finding what was there before.

  • 01Ego Death / Ego Rebirth
  • 02The Performance No One Asked For
  • 03Mask Beneath the Mask
  • 04Who Am I Without the Armor
  • 05The Self That Hides from Mirrors
  • 06All the Selves I Had to Kill to Get Here
  • 07Identity Collapse at 3am
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Love & Devotion

Love & Devotion

Sacred and scarred. Six songs about the kind of love that blesses and burns simultaneously.

  • 01Holy and Haunted
  • 02The Way You Loved Like a Wound
  • 03Devoted to Something That Wasn't Real
  • 04What I Called Love Was a Mirror
  • 05I Gave You My God and You Gave Me Back Ashes
  • 06Sacred Mess
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Spiritual War

Spiritual War

The title collection. Six songs from the frontlines of faith and doubt, shadow and light, profane and sacred — refusing to choose.

  • 01The Christian Satanist
  • 02God in the Rubble
  • 03Wrestling Angels
  • 04Church of the Broken and Unbothered
  • 05Sacred Profane
  • 06Heretic Prayer
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Individual Tracks

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Original Collection — The First 33
Shadow & Grief
01
Don't Turn The Wounded Into Monsters
A raw reckoning with how pain gets weaponized — and how grace survives it.
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I Learned to Grieve in the Dark
The kind of loss nobody talks about. The private collapse.
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The Weight You Named Love
When devotion becomes a burden no one asked you to carry.
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Funeral for the Self I Killed
Mourning who you had to become to survive.
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05
What Survives the Burning
After everything collapses — what's left is the realest thing you have.
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Carrying the Dead Version of Me
The ghost self. The one you outgrew but can't quite bury.
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Before I Learned to Let It Hurt
The armor years. The years before you could feel it honestly.
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Rebirth & Light
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After the Collapse, Morning
The quiet that follows the earthquake. The first breath that's yours again.
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09
Something Like Hope
Not the big shining kind. The small stubborn kind that refuses to leave.
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The Other Side of Breaking
What's on the other side isn't a return. It's something new entirely.
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When the Wound Becomes a Window
The transformation that only the damaged can understand.
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Becoming Who I Was Before the Damage
Underneath all the scar tissue — the original self, waiting.
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Light Through the Fracture
Kintsugi in sound. Broken open, not broken down.
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I Found God Where I Fell Apart
The sacred doesn't live in cathedrals. It lives in the wreckage.
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Ego & Identity
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Ego Death / Ego Rebirth
The dissolution and reconstruction of the self. The hardest rite of passage.
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The Performance No One Asked For
Performing yourself for an audience that never required the show.
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Mask Beneath the Mask
Layer after layer after layer. What's actually underneath?
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Who Am I Without the Armor
The terrifying softness beneath the strength you performed.
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The Self That Hides from Mirrors
Avoidance as identity. The face you refuse to fully see.
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All the Selves I Had to Kill to Get Here
Evolution requires death. Every version of you that had to go.
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Identity Collapse at 3am
The hour when the constructed self falls away and you meet the real one.
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Love & Devotion
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Holy and Haunted
Love that blesses and curses simultaneously. The sacred burden.
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The Way You Loved Like a Wound
Devotion that cuts. The beautiful damage of being fully seen.
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Devoted to Something That Wasn't Real
Grief for a fantasy. Mourning the person you thought they were.
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What I Called Love Was a Mirror
Narcissism, projection, and the love that was always just your own reflection.
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I Gave You My God and You Gave Me Back Ashes
Sacred offering, unholy return. The betrayal only the devoted can know.
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Sacred Mess
Imperfect love. Real love. The kind that can't be cleaned up.
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Spiritual War
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The Christian Satanist
The title track. The paradox. The refusal to choose a clean side.
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God in the Rubble
Finding the divine not in the pristine, but in the broken-down.
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30
Wrestling Angels
Jacob's battle reimagined. The blessing that only comes through the fight.
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Church of the Broken and Unbothered
A congregation for the ones who couldn't fit in the original building.
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32
Sacred Profane
The collision of the holy and the unholy in a single body.
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Heretic Prayer
A prayer from the outside. Honest. Unsanctioned. More true than most.
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Kaleidoscope Mind — 42 Tracks
Mirror & Reflection
36
Back of the Glass, Where Reflections
The place behind every mirror — where the version you hide from yourself lives.
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Mirror Learns Your Name
The moment a reflection stops being passive. The moment it knows you.
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Mirror of the Absurd (Raspier / Darker)
The absurdity of self-examination taken past the edge. Darker, rawer, truer.
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51
Mirror With a Heart, Man!
A reflection that feels. The audacity of a mirror that aches back.
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The Mirror Merchant
Someone selling reflections you didn't ask for. Every image has a price.
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THUMPER IN THE MIRROR
The thing that pounds on the glass from the other side. It wants out.
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Whisper Between Worlds
The message that travels through glass. Too quiet to catch, too real to ignore.
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Whoop, Whoop... Mirrors of Madness
Celebration inside the funhouse. Every reflection laughs different.
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Mind & Thought
35
Algorithm & Dragons (Remastered)
The mythic creatures living in the code. Logic and legend sharing the same server.
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39
Blink Away Thinker
The thought that disappears the moment you try to focus on it. Gone on contact.
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43
GROWN FROM THOUGHT (Welcome to the Mind)
Everything you are started as something you thought. Welcome to the origin.
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Mindscape Architect
The one who builds the interior world. Every thought is a blueprint.
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Only One Thought
Singular focus in a scattered world. The power of the one thing that remains.
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57
Reality Frequency
Tuning to the signal that's actually real — not the noise everyone else calls normal.
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62
The Echoes of the Machine
The sound a mind makes after it's been running too long. Beautiful and broken.
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71
what I thought
The gap between assumption and truth. Everything you were so sure about.
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Windmill Reflections
Tilting at giants that are real. The mind that can't stop turning.
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Absurdist & Playful
34
Whoop Whoop, This Is Fine (Remastered)
The battle cry of radical acceptance. Everything is on fire. We're okay with it.
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37
Bad Decisions & Punchlines
When the worst choices make the best stories. Comedy born from consequence.
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40
Carnival of the Unchained
The freak show where freedom lives. Chaos as a form of liberation.
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42
Forbidden Farmers Market
What gets sold when the rules don't apply. Illicit produce. Dangerous seasonings.
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46
Is Cereal Soup?
The question that breaks every philosophical system. Breakfast as existential crisis.
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47
KINDERGARTNERS IN GROWN-UP SKIS
We're all out here way over our heads on equipment we didn't earn. Terrifying. Hilarious.
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Trip in Place
Going nowhere at full speed. The internal odyssey that doesn't require moving.
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We Are Weavers
All of us threading meaning into something that didn't come with a pattern.
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Shadow & Darkness
38
Beautifully Bent and Twisted (Remastered)
The shapes pain makes. How damage can be its own kind of architecture.
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44
Hollow Nothings
Words that sound like comfort but carry no weight. The emptiness in the assurance.
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45
I've Already Been the Reaper (Can We Not)
The exhaustion of someone who's done the dark work. Asking to be excused.
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53
NO ONE ELSE'S FAITH
Belief that can't be borrowed or performed. The kind you have to grow in the dark alone.
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56
RAGE WITH A BITE
Anger that doesn't just simmer — it draws blood. Righteous, precise, and real.
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60
The Cost of Right
What you pay when you refuse to take the easy wrong. The price of integrity.
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61
The Cut Where God Stops Smiling
The moment the divine looks away. The wound that happens in the silence.
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the ones who die quietly
No drama. No final words. Just the slow disappearance nobody notices in time.
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Vault of Shadows
The storage facility for everything you locked away. Fireproof. Soundproof. Not erasable.
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Light & Dreams
41
Dreams Are The Reality
The inversion: what you sleep through is the truth. Waking is the lesser state.
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52
Moonborn Machine
Built by lunacy and light. The mechanism that only runs at night.
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55
Perpetual Motion
The thing that never stops. Energy that feeds itself. The relentless forward.
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58
Respect is a Verb
Not a feeling. Not a noun. Something you do, every day, even when it's hard.
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59
The Beat That Found Its Rhythm
After all the stumbling — the moment it clicks. The cadence you were always meant to keep.
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63
The Ethereal Slip
The moment between states. Not here, not there — the beautiful in-between.
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64
The Hum That Belongs Here (Remastered)
The frequency of home. The vibration that means you're exactly where you're supposed to be.
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Whispers and Wildflowers
The quiet things that grow without permission. Beauty that refuses to be controlled.
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