The Catalog

The Songs

61 songs mapped across an arc of wounding, management, and coronation.
Each one labeled with its function in the whole.

01 Under Every Sky The heart

02 Exhibit A The prosecution

03 Towers Fell The witness

04 Light in the Laughter The faith

05 Depths of Tomorrow The surrender

06 Fire in the Mirror The shadow

07 Calliope The confession

08 Hold It All The weight

09 Palaces The indictment

10 Driveways & Parkways The wit

11 Vocabulary Variety Show The education

12 Literally Funked The precision

13 Prepared Mind / Broken Mirror The philosophy

14 Santa Dog The absurdity

15 Heavy Heart The endurance

16 Opinions from the Fire The cost

17 Ignorance Can't The challenge

18 Ego Death / Ego Rebirth The transformation

19 Luck and Miracles The definition

20 Side by Side The proof

21 The Mask of Progress The warning

22 Petrichor & Phosphenes The method

23 Kingdom of the Unmade The becoming

24 Algorithm & Dragons The satire

25 Ashes Don't Bow The testimony

26 The Weight We Carry The aftermath

27 Oh I Am Human The acceptance

28 Altar of Ashes The reckoning

29 The Unfiltered Saint The identity

30 The War We Need The call

31 Chaos Engine The release

32 Before It's Too Late The rally

33 Fire in the Truth The operation

34 Non-Algorithmic Heartbeat The proof of existence

35 The Price of Peace The elegy

36 Flying Pickles Pajama Party The nonsense

37 When We Were Young The grace

38 Coffin Ballet The delirium

39 Psych, Gotcha The charm

40 Glass Between the Ghosts The dissolution

41 Dogma in the Teeth The rejection

42 Dreams in the Sunlight The peace

43 Mirror of the Absurd The insurgency

44 Twilight's Rumor The incantation

45 Luminous Shadows The lullaby

46 Gold in the Cracks The wholeness

47 Not a Song But a Warning The reckoning (outward)

48 Grown from Thought The management

49 The Mirror Merchant The parable

50 Same State, Strange Mind The neuroscience

51 Fuck Your Grace Period The dispatch

52 This Is Me Pt. 2 The coronation

53 Juice Box for the Monster The practice

55 Drop the Colors, Fly the Jolly Roger The origin

56 The Filter Fell Off The interface

57 The Independents The gratitude

58 Better Heel The command

59 Blacklight Wings of Flight The anthem Lineage declared: Carlin (honesty) · Hicks (testing) · Pee-Wee Herman (absurdist joy) · Rob Zombie (macabre beauty) · Weird Al Yankovic (parodic mastery)

60 Find Your Own Ride The testimony

61 Find Your Own Ride Pt. 2: Build The Fleet The verdict

From the Catalog

Three glimpses from the collection

“What you feel is not a flaw. It’s a fire. It’s the evidence that you’re still in there, still burning, still refusing to go out quietly.”

— From the collection

“I gave the monster a juice box and a nap. He’s been quiet ever since. Turns out the beast just needed to be seen, not conquered.”

— From the collection

“Motherfucker, we’re the whole damn thing. The wound and the healing. The question and the answer. The ember and the ink.”

— From the collection

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The Christian Satanist

Les Smith • Vincennes, Indiana

A multidisciplinary artist, poet, and visual storyteller whose work explores the sacred tension between darkness and light, ego and spirit, collapse and becoming.

Active duty US Navy. F/A-18E Super Hornets. VFA-115 Eagles. Three combat operations. He stopped counting ordinance somewhere past 500,000 pounds.

Then twenty years in the dark. Not curiosity — a fully inhabited life on the other side of the light. Then Matthew 7:7. He asked inward. He found something he didn’t expect. He does not fear now.

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From the Catalog

Poetry from the edge of shadow and revelation

The Christian Satanist